Faith/Trust?

so..im having an issue with faith and trusting in my life at the moment...trusting God & having faith in him for some issues in my life...it sucks..i am struggling...i know i need to have faith ..i know i need trust, but its hard when you dont see anything coming out of that faith and trust...and then my favorite verse comes into action

Faith is being sure of what we hope for

and certain of what we do not see. Heb 11:1

now..why cant i just remember this verse-what we do not see...precisely where my problem is...what i dont see..and why cant i leave it to God..why do i think i can do anything in this matter? why would i ever 2nd guess that he has my best in hand and will do whats best for me.why the heck would i EVER do what i think is right....get with it christy....stop trying to do it by yourself..

and i also like this quote:

Faithless is he that says farewell when the road darkens. -Toilkien

why do we say farwell? why cant we just believe things will happen-it works..i. have done it before and God has proven me over and over but why do i still struggle so? AHHHHH...but that doesnt mean i still cant keep asking him for help over and over...and i do..sigh...its just one of those days/weeks/months...FAITH & TRUST are much needed.